Children

Children are infinitely amazing, especially mine.

I find each new stage interesting, the smiles and coos, the rolling over and crawling. Then walking, running, jumping and singing!

Elizabeth strings words together to try and get her thoughts across to us. She babbles constantly, and sometimes she actually makes sense. We always say "I love you Elizabeth", and now she has started to say things like "me mommy love". Does a two year old truly understand what love means? I don't know, but I think maybe she does.

We bought her a ukulele for her birthday, which she calls her guitar. She pulls it out and starts strumming the strings and singing original songs. She can sing the ABC song, but she prefers singing her own songs, creativity in its purist form and I have a front row seat. She loves music, I hope her interest grows and becomes something, but for now it is just awesome to watch her do her thing.

Sam is another story. Anyone claiming that there is little difference between boys and girls has not had children. Sam is a brute. He has little care for his body, he sees something he wants and he finds a way to get it. Usually he lands on his head getting it.
Sam and Liza are very different, I can see personality traits coming out of them, as far as I can tell babies are not blank slates, they come partially loaded with... something.

I want to say something about how I hate calling myself a "Christian". The word is so loaded with thousands of years of other peoples crap, I really don't want to be associated with the word. And yet I have no problem at all with Yahweh and Jesus. I don't know what to do with that. The word "human" also has that problem... sometimes I think I think too much.

A mission

I am a rambler, and so I feel that I should probably keep this blog focused on my 4 Main passions in life.
1. Family
2. God (I can feel some eyes rolling, and that's fine. I will not be trying to prove anything here)
3. Books
4. Music

I shall expand, by explaining were I am in my life in regards to these passions.

Family
I am married to Melissa, we have two children together one girl, one boy. Our oldest is Elizabeth she is turning two tomorrow. The other is Sam he is nine months old.
Melissa and I are currently being scrutinized by the Canadian Government in order to take Foster Children. It is an interesting process as they ask incredibly detailed, intimate questions, a process I am actually enjoying as it is making me take a close look at my past and making me think about it.

God
I was raised Atheist. In my family, God was not even a subject, and therefore I was not really aware of how intrinsic the God idea was in society. I consider myself a logical analytical person and so I can only explain it this way: I have never heard a good enough answer to ANY of the big questions to make me doubt that there is a God.
Big question #1 If time started with the big bang, how did the moment of the big bang occur without time?
Big question #2 If evolution is all about survival of the fittest why and how did it go beyond a simple bacteria? (that's not even going into the astronomically large "accident" life is to begin with, the odds are quite strange to say the least)
Big question #3 If there is no "good" or "bad" then it should be OK for me to steal all your stuff right?

Books
I love reading. I may talk about a really good book I am reading. Books you really should read: I'll cover that later.

Music
This love ebbs and flows. Sometimes I find a new band(or rediscover old stuff) and music feels fresh to me again, and sometimes it feels old and stale (like every time I hear Madonna, or most new pop trash). I may go on about music from time to time.

Figuring out the blog thing

Testing the picture thing.

Number one

This is the first entry and therefor a test to see how it works and looks.